Tuesday, December 13, 2011

From now on , no more love. It just hurts you and accusing you with things that might hurt yourself. I am now, depending on jodoh Allah. Please make me strong. Theres a reason. The reason is you and the reason is You.
Hey thnks fr everything. Now baru me tau what am i to you. Hm :). Its okay. Take care and just go find another. I insisted.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Ever since I was a baby boy I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening.
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to her finally.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Why does it hard to move on like her did? :(
She seemed so real, tossed my stuff in the bin, deleting me from her life. And influenced from her friends. Mesti ade cakap 'all guy mmg mcm ni pon'. Mesti phrase ni yg buat you tertye tye. Tapi if she can moved on, why cannot i? Its hard. Very hard :(. Entahlah. Rase mcm salah dia dah jadi mcm semua salah aku balik. Returns back to me. Hm. I will do it slowly. Pictures of her in laptop and phone already delete. Dah block accnt dia. Gamba dia... Hmm. Im not ready. Shirt dia, scent dia cawan dia. Hm. Really tertekan. Dgn tk focus mase chemnye :|. Hope Allah bantu aku. I will change. Thats my promise. No more love in studies. No more long distance. Teliti bckground org dlu sblum buat keputusan. Taknk lagi berakhir dgn pain stabbed in my heart. :'(. Hm tapi dia cakap dia love me dia miss me. Tapi kenapa dia sanggup hurt aku. Maybe dia bukan utk aku. Two different worlds collide. Apocalypse.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Since she lied to me, all her doings shaken my trust towards her. I dont know why :|. But i will always pray that you will find another. Jodoh datang dari segala edge of your life,we cannot control it we cannot expext it when but when kun faya kun, you will be with the man that destined for you. I wish you're happy. Thats enough for me. Just to see you happy. Hm...... :|

Thursday, December 1, 2011

I also hope one day, you and me can change place and you can feel what i feel. If you be on my place, you will hurt as im hurt. If you on my place, you will know how is it to be me.


The first since i knew her, i thought she was a savior of my life. Someone that can cheers for me everyday. Someone that i can keep my promise to. But now its different. I thought she will be better than person before, but still it hurts more that before. I don't know. Dulu, mase dia first time mintak clash. My heart hurted so much. I want to let go her, but at that time i can't because a small percentage about my sins halang daripada let go dia. I stayed from that moment. When my mind have changed, i became completely love her because from that moment. But then, she lied to me..........

                       I don't know what to do anymore that time. I became so rushed sebab aku tak sangka yang orang yang dulu aku kenal tidak ada perangai sebegitu. Dia say sorry. So many times actually she said that word. But still, she did it again and again. My heart dulu sgt fragile and sangat sayang orang yang aku sayang ,now became more to heartless.  I don't know what to do anymore. I kept that feelings away but she still did it again. Crushing my heart to pieces. Thousand pieces. And then dia salahkan aku sebab perangai aku. Hm........

                     Takpelah, i think i made the right decision to let her go this time. Aku janji takkan contact dia. Aku berjanji. Walaupun it stabbed me rite thru the heart so many times but let it be.Walaupun susah untuk melepaskan orang yang aku saynag, tapi lagi bagus daripada menyimpan racun dgn diri  sndri. Dia bukan sayang hati aku lagi. Asyik aku je sayang hati dia. Dia asyik buat ikut kemahuan dia je tanpa pkir perasaan orang lain. If its normal to you , then jangan cari org mcm me in the first place. You already know my perangai when dgn dia dlu, kan? Sampai hati dia buat aku mcm ni.
                      "Maafkan me if me ad salah dgn you, maafkan me if me ad berkasar dgn you selama ni, maafkan me if ade things yang me hide from you, maafkan me if me not the best guy you hoped for, maafkan me if me leave you. Maafkan me atas ketelanjuran me. Maafkan segala dosa dosa me terhadap baby." I leave you because you always made my life tak tenteram. My life selama 2 bulan dekat jordan ni jadi terumbang ambing. Me tak tau la. Me study medicine. Medicine tu susah. If you asyik buat me mcm ni, mcm mne me nk hidup. Tak tau la awak, my heart tengah pedih sangat now. I think you the first person that made my tears fall down so many times. I weak hearted person. Im need a supporter. Not this. Not sending me msg yang dapat lukakan lagi hati me. You nmpk je me mcm tk kisah, but act everynite me fikir. Ni dh nk dkat exm. Me tak dapat focus lagi. Sabtu ni dh exam. Tapi ade you know how my life sni. How my attitude are? hm, you hanya tau keseronokan you je. Tu je conclusion nye, its all about you. If me beralah, takkan me nk terima something yang me tasuke. Takkan me nk pendam perasaan tu, sedangkan you boleh happy. Hm, takpelah. You pandai, you smart, you boleh fikir. Im sorry. But the last thing from me, hope you find a good man.


Thursday, April 7, 2011


Here, We are.
We been here. Yes we have !
Can you tell me, we're okay ?
We face to face
But are we still apart
Can you tell me, It's okay?
You can't know what you done!
No you don't know how much I change ...
You can stay, you can go.
Still I will never be the same
But I hope that will be okay ...
You can't know what you done!
No you don't know how I change ...
I know, I was wrong, I'm sorry that I hurt you.
Can you tell me, It's okay?
Here, We are.
We been here. Before ...
Can you tell me, It's okay?

You can't know, what you done !
No you don't know how I change.
I know, I was wrong, I'm sorry that I hurt you.
Can you tell me, It's okay?

Im sorry that i hurt you,im sorry Aisyah. :/

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang itu selagi seseorang itu mengubah nasibnya sendiri.

Al hikmah to the ones yang berkata tidak boleh kepada dirinya. :)


A life lived for other needs is the most worth living.

From newspaper:P

Tips untuk mencari pasangan hidup:

1: mengetahui hukum hakam dan bab bab agama
2:elok paras rupanya
3:baik keturunannya which consists of their family right now
4:pandai and berkerjaya professional.
5:menyenangkan hati masing masing
6: good attitude with both sides of the family
7: and have motherly attitude


Its an attitude that literally 'makan diri sendiri'. But i dont know if i could change it. It makes who i am and every time i starting to change,there must be something or someone that made me jealous again :|. Yup tho you said its was nothin,'just a greet,not bersyg2,tak nak bermusuh',but still its hurts. Maybe you saud hey chill lah,but you didnt feel the same way i did. I hope you'll understand my condition. Yeah,its a burden to get along with a guy like this. For eome reasons i wish i had no feeling so that you can do wtv u want without my feelings gets hurts. Again i'll hope you will understand. Im jealous because i dont want you to go and somehow thats one of the way i can show my<3. But please dont get tired or annoying with me because i dont know what to do if the thing keeps coming in the way as i try to change. Please understands me. :|. Im sorry if somehow this post will makes you feel like 'hahh?'. MLY :)

P/s: Laki mane yang tak jeles tengok girl dia chat balik dgn Ex die. Its normal lah. And mayb u said its was nothing or believe me i had no feelings for him but but but a thing n happen where the string xan get tangle again :). So hahah. Be happy and follow my parent had taught me :)

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


Friday, March 18, 2011

Mood: swing



Berjemaah subuh dan isyak amat besar fadhilatnya.
Jemaah subuh: Allah akan melindunginya dari pagi sehingga ke waktu isyak
Jemaah isyak: Allah akan melindungnya dari waktu isyak sehingga pagi subuh hari seterusnya

Tidak lupa dengan solat dhuha.Umpama membuat haji pada tahun tersebut.

Akan diupdatekan lagi :D
Better than yesterday is the "Hairum Ummah"

Thursday, March 17, 2011


Im not bring any happiness and you cannot accept me to be like this.
This how the way i love someone. When i love,i love with my all heart. To me to be jealous is the way to show how love am i to you? Maybe it just too early to make you understand that is me.

I'll try to change,give me the strenght.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

We all want happiness in our lives. Sometimes it needs some sacrifice to achieve that,sometimes it requires patience,sometimes by quarreling makes our pavement to our happiness.

To me,patience does pays.

To choose happiness,is like choosing roads. You doesnt know it for sure but in the end of the day you just need to encourage and boost yourself to the highest point.

They are many roads of happiness.

First: a straightaway
Second:a diverging
Third:a narrow
Fourth: road with thorns
Fifth: a road with all the needs

So what road is yours? Im owned one :D

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


Waiting for her readiness :)

Selawat Anwar

اَللّهُمَّ صَلِى وَسَلِّمْ عَلَى نُورِالاَنْوَار . وَسِرِّالاسْرَارْ . وَتِرْيَاقِ اْلاَغْيَارْ . وَمِفْتَاحِ بَابِ اليَسَارْ . سَيِّدِنَا وَمَولانَا مُحَمًّدٍ المُخْتَار وَآلِهِ الاَطْهَار . وَاَصْحَابِهِ الاَخْيَار . عَدَدَ نِعَمِ اللهِ وَاِ فْضَالِه


Did you guys believe in fate that destined to you?

I am fully believe in fate and the whole reason behind it.

Okay,a girl who make me more better that before,a girl who had taught me how to be patience,a girl who easily take all my opinions and give hers,
This were the fate,and i keep holding on to it because i believe with His redha,we'll be great and awesome :)

*nak taw sape? sape mkn cili dia terase pedasnyewww :DD


Allah creates our mom and dad,just to make us exist and live in this pass-by-world.
Allah created them,just to show the meaning of love.
The love to our parents,love to mothernature,love to someone else and love to friends
But yet The ULTIMATE love is still unbeatable,undeniable,unforgottable,love to ALLAH,the ONE who created you,the one who created your parent.

Love to our parents and love to our CREATOR.It is the love with never ending,the one told which promised a happily ever after.