Tuesday, December 13, 2011

From now on , no more love. It just hurts you and accusing you with things that might hurt yourself. I am now, depending on jodoh Allah. Please make me strong. Theres a reason. The reason is you and the reason is You.
Hey thnks fr everything. Now baru me tau what am i to you. Hm :). Its okay. Take care and just go find another. I insisted.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Ever since I was a baby boy I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my mate has met my soul

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
And on another phase
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something beautiful is happening.
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to her finally.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Why does it hard to move on like her did? :(
She seemed so real, tossed my stuff in the bin, deleting me from her life. And influenced from her friends. Mesti ade cakap 'all guy mmg mcm ni pon'. Mesti phrase ni yg buat you tertye tye. Tapi if she can moved on, why cannot i? Its hard. Very hard :(. Entahlah. Rase mcm salah dia dah jadi mcm semua salah aku balik. Returns back to me. Hm. I will do it slowly. Pictures of her in laptop and phone already delete. Dah block accnt dia. Gamba dia... Hmm. Im not ready. Shirt dia, scent dia cawan dia. Hm. Really tertekan. Dgn tk focus mase chemnye :|. Hope Allah bantu aku. I will change. Thats my promise. No more love in studies. No more long distance. Teliti bckground org dlu sblum buat keputusan. Taknk lagi berakhir dgn pain stabbed in my heart. :'(. Hm tapi dia cakap dia love me dia miss me. Tapi kenapa dia sanggup hurt aku. Maybe dia bukan utk aku. Two different worlds collide. Apocalypse.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Since she lied to me, all her doings shaken my trust towards her. I dont know why :|. But i will always pray that you will find another. Jodoh datang dari segala edge of your life,we cannot control it we cannot expext it when but when kun faya kun, you will be with the man that destined for you. I wish you're happy. Thats enough for me. Just to see you happy. Hm...... :|

Thursday, December 1, 2011

I also hope one day, you and me can change place and you can feel what i feel. If you be on my place, you will hurt as im hurt. If you on my place, you will know how is it to be me.


The first since i knew her, i thought she was a savior of my life. Someone that can cheers for me everyday. Someone that i can keep my promise to. But now its different. I thought she will be better than person before, but still it hurts more that before. I don't know. Dulu, mase dia first time mintak clash. My heart hurted so much. I want to let go her, but at that time i can't because a small percentage about my sins halang daripada let go dia. I stayed from that moment. When my mind have changed, i became completely love her because from that moment. But then, she lied to me..........

                       I don't know what to do anymore that time. I became so rushed sebab aku tak sangka yang orang yang dulu aku kenal tidak ada perangai sebegitu. Dia say sorry. So many times actually she said that word. But still, she did it again and again. My heart dulu sgt fragile and sangat sayang orang yang aku sayang ,now became more to heartless.  I don't know what to do anymore. I kept that feelings away but she still did it again. Crushing my heart to pieces. Thousand pieces. And then dia salahkan aku sebab perangai aku. Hm........

                     Takpelah, i think i made the right decision to let her go this time. Aku janji takkan contact dia. Aku berjanji. Walaupun it stabbed me rite thru the heart so many times but let it be.Walaupun susah untuk melepaskan orang yang aku saynag, tapi lagi bagus daripada menyimpan racun dgn diri  sndri. Dia bukan sayang hati aku lagi. Asyik aku je sayang hati dia. Dia asyik buat ikut kemahuan dia je tanpa pkir perasaan orang lain. If its normal to you , then jangan cari org mcm me in the first place. You already know my perangai when dgn dia dlu, kan? Sampai hati dia buat aku mcm ni.
                      "Maafkan me if me ad salah dgn you, maafkan me if me ad berkasar dgn you selama ni, maafkan me if ade things yang me hide from you, maafkan me if me not the best guy you hoped for, maafkan me if me leave you. Maafkan me atas ketelanjuran me. Maafkan segala dosa dosa me terhadap baby." I leave you because you always made my life tak tenteram. My life selama 2 bulan dekat jordan ni jadi terumbang ambing. Me tak tau la. Me study medicine. Medicine tu susah. If you asyik buat me mcm ni, mcm mne me nk hidup. Tak tau la awak, my heart tengah pedih sangat now. I think you the first person that made my tears fall down so many times. I weak hearted person. Im need a supporter. Not this. Not sending me msg yang dapat lukakan lagi hati me. You nmpk je me mcm tk kisah, but act everynite me fikir. Ni dh nk dkat exm. Me tak dapat focus lagi. Sabtu ni dh exam. Tapi ade you know how my life sni. How my attitude are? hm, you hanya tau keseronokan you je. Tu je conclusion nye, its all about you. If me beralah, takkan me nk terima something yang me tasuke. Takkan me nk pendam perasaan tu, sedangkan you boleh happy. Hm, takpelah. You pandai, you smart, you boleh fikir. Im sorry. But the last thing from me, hope you find a good man.


Thursday, April 7, 2011


Here, We are.
We been here. Yes we have !
Can you tell me, we're okay ?
We face to face
But are we still apart
Can you tell me, It's okay?
You can't know what you done!
No you don't know how much I change ...
You can stay, you can go.
Still I will never be the same
But I hope that will be okay ...
You can't know what you done!
No you don't know how I change ...
I know, I was wrong, I'm sorry that I hurt you.
Can you tell me, It's okay?
Here, We are.
We been here. Before ...
Can you tell me, It's okay?

You can't know, what you done !
No you don't know how I change.
I know, I was wrong, I'm sorry that I hurt you.
Can you tell me, It's okay?

Im sorry that i hurt you,im sorry Aisyah. :/