Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Hot Air Balloon.

      I woke up from my long sleep and I saw I'm in the middle of the plain grassy field with no sign of civilization,no sign of living organisms except for the grass that i've stepped on.A monotonous question play around my booklet of mind on how did i get here?.He decided to take a walk around the field,just checking out the place as he became more confused about the place.It is like the flat earth surfaces with no end of it and just like a tormention to him.Maybe he was dreaming."oh,i forgot to wash up my feet",he insisted.That's why i'm dreaming.

       A shiny object took his attention.Its about a metre of distance.Shockingly its a knife that gave the most scariest thought on how i going to do with it.Weird eh,what a knife doing right here?Is there any people here?"Ah,my mind played me again",he said angrily.Now i know why lunatic people did some crazy thing,the mind control everything though.

      I reminisce about my mother's advices.She once had said that if you found that you were in a dreamland,the best way to return back to real world is by do something that will hurt you...a lot.Then,he took the knife and stabbed himself vigorously.Everything went black.

     A sudden force pulled me down abruptly.Its gravitational force i think.Then i fell down onto a soft grassy soil that reduced the impulsive force.And now i'm talking about physics. I woke up and found out that i was at the first place i woke up just now.Deja' vu it is.And he tried many times to get to the real life if it is just a dream but still it kept repeating itself.

      Then,he decided again to take a walk around the field.As he walked along the field without destination,his eyes rolling wildly all around,its seems to be all green and the sky was dimm'd and shows a thousands pool of misery.Suddenly,out of the blue,a huge shade covered almost a quarter of the field.I ran towards the shade and being a curious man i ever had because curiousity can killed the cat.My mouth was sealed up as my eyes targeted on the hot air balloon that come from nowhere."My mouth is murmuring, the thing get there?.All this thing confused him again and again.

      His train of thought made him to ride the balloon on whatever condition,maybe that is my escape plan.As he climb up the balloon and get into the balloon,he stepped on a book,a red book.Actually its a "How to fly a hot air balloon" book."Haha,this should ease me",he said.He read the instruction and were asked to untie each of the weights that tied around the basket of the hot air balloon.Then,without wasting any time,i went to untie the weights but weirdly the balloon won't bunch a metre,actually it doesnt move at all.The balloon does not floating from what its suppose to be.He confused again.

       He glanced towards an object at the side of the basket.He found out that its a rattle.He checked the rattle and started to recognise it.Suddenly he seaten himself,and said oh,its my baby's rattle.He felt sorry.He still remembered about the accident that he had last few years.The accident killed my baby,my only baby girl.His tears fell down to the rattle.If i had to be a careful person that time,that was never going to be happened.He checked all over the rattle again.He found out that there is a carved wording."Daddy,i forgive you,love your baby girl",the words says.He stood up and decided to threw away the rattle for being a burden to me.As he throw the rattle,the balloon rises.He was shocked.

        I found a bat with my son named on it.I can still remebered how i promised him that i would come to his big game.His tears rolling down again,"oh,James i'm sorry for not being a good father".A father would granted all his promised.What kind of father am I?.The hurricane struck the field,everyone were killed by the nature rages."How could i forgive myself",he said.Almost 30 minutes of reminisce about the past,he stopped to make flood in his eyes.Stood up and he  said," i cannot do this to myself".I must let go of it .I throw the bat away,and the balloon rises more.Then,i discovered that the weights that hold down the balloon was my memories of my past.I need to throw as i released it away to rise up the balloon.I must turn on the new leaves.

         As he threw more things away,his smile is pictured on his face.He started to feel the happiness,the harmony,to feel like a new person.

          I could see the sunlight filtered by the black clouds."I need to see the sun,i need to see the sun",he said.At the meantime,he saw an album near him.He took the album and started to cry and shaking all over again.That is the family album.He scared to open either to throw it away because it is my unforgettable moment i had.After a hours of remembering my happiest moment,he took his courage over his fear.His eyes cannot bear another drop of tears.I holding the album and stared at it,I love you guys so much,how i miss you guys so much,but i cannot make this a burden to me.I cannot make through it all by myself.I dont have the strength to do it.I must have a new life,i must be a new person.Then,he threw away the album and the balloon rises above the black clouds.

            He hope to see the sun and his wish is granted.As he looked onto the sun,his eyes rolled down his face.All of this years i've been trapped between the world and afterlife was because i locked up my memories.I must let go of it.Yeah now i get it,this is not a dream.Its real for a soul.People shouldnt make their past a burden to them.Try to let it go and you'll find a way to become a new person,a new soul.

            Now i'm going to the new life after.The light flooded all around the balloon ,all around my body as i dissapears into the light.Finally,"my heart and my soul could rest in peace from now on",he whispered.


Sunday, September 5, 2010


Puasa dekat nak habis dah.Sekejap gila rase die.Now nak raya pulak....ermmm,mercun,hahaha,dah tade faktor untukku maen mercun...tade feel la orang kate.Baju raye warne biru,eventhough it is not my fav...but i think i will suit it into the lists.

And to those yang nak SPM...jangan raya sakan cam gila..spm is around the corner though and to be exacted,at least about 6 minggu lepas cuti raya weih....

Yang dah dapat 10 A's tuh,jangan mimpi korg bole dpt 10a's dlm SPM klau korang dah start relax now.Time and tide waits for no man and woman.So....for my fellow comrads,my companionship of my life,my VVVVIP person of my life...lets step our foot to the pathway of success.May god gives wtv u wanted and hope for it to be granted.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Trial Results.


Alhamdulillah,10 A's.tapi nk try buang A- sket in the upcoming trial exam.if the exam is held.

Thursday, June 10, 2010


There is no such thing as 'what if' and 'perhaps' in my lexicon.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


Lepas habis tengok PERCY JACKSON&THE LIGHTNING THIEF,on the nk ke kenderaan kami.Cek2 poket ayah,ayah mule bising,mane tiket nh,beliau berkate".pas2 teros ditanye kat guard kat situ,adek aq follow blakang,adek aq paling kecik,afham.
Sebok ayah aq tanye camne nk kuar klau takde tiket kat guard tuh,kami yg lain tgk gelagat afham yg mengangguk2 dgn perbualan ayah ng guard tadi.Ibu pon panggil afham,afham,ape yg angguk2 nye.Afham berkate,takdelh,afham tgk hidung die senget.Apa lagi gelak habis kteorg.Pas2 dh habis citcat,tros ke keta,dan cter tadi pon disampaikn kat ayah.Ayah kate "haah,hidung die pelik sikit".

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

this is my first masterpiece.

anything that related to this stories,it is not true,just a story from my heart.
TITLE:Destiny is the bridge to the love one.

Hye,this story started last two years ago.My name is Charles Bellow.Actually i'm from Montana,being transfered to New York because my father asked me to.Mr.Bellow,my father is a manager of mining company,weird to say,i could just heired my father;s company.What a laugh,I still remembered his phrase,"Son,i want you to be independent,in case of that,you need to find your work by yourself".Every single words he told me that moment,makes my life more lifeful.He said,"there will be your uncle's company at NY,try to get from him".Next week I departed from Montana to NY,waving to my homeland.

At that time in NY,Jordan Roark,a daughter of among the wealthiest person in NY,just acting like bunch of silly things.Her attitude doesn't showed her a daughter of the most respected man.Since her fiancee died,Jordan become more like a street person who desperately wanted love that can replaced her love to her fiancee.Wandering all over the night,around the city,drunken all the time.Many people had already knew her attitude.Just a normal routine to the society with the presence of her.Everytime she got drunken,one two step out the liqour store,passed out.But there will be someone that lift her to her tremendous incredible large house.What a hard year that she having?

As Charles Bellow arrive to the airport,took down his luggage,walk out the building,halt a cab."Ermm,can you take me to this address,its my friend's house",he said to the driver.The driver drove him to the address.Braking sound,already arrive there,'just a condominium',he thought."It will be a good start",he said whisperedly as he walked into the lift.Knock the door,number 217,someone open the door.Shrieking sound.Say hye to each other,into the room.Its not a bad condominium,big spaces,comfort to live.That night Charles buy his friend a pizza.They had a good talk,about girls,about job,others men problems.Charles excused himself to stay with his friend for a long time,he guess but until he got a new job.Charles showed the company address,and do some preparation for the interviews.His friend being a good friend,help Charles do almost everything.
They had a good night,Charles's train of thought flew away back to his homeland.

At the next day,get ready for the important day of his life.Walked down the condominium,take a cab to the subway,because roads got traffic.Waiting still at the bench,my eyes focused on a women,maybe at my age,he thought."PAPPPPP,he slap himself,arghhh,just focused on the interviews",he said.Train's horn sounded.Stand and walked to the stand limit.Beside the women, just a glared,seeing the women cried.Shes beautiful.Elegant of her dressing showed her a rich women.But why cried?.Train come closer,Charles see her step fward and foward.The women tried to kill herself,the trains come very fast.With a rush of adrenaline,i pull her hand,put onto my chest,"Are you insane?",Charles said.She stop crying and frantically introduced herself,"My name Jordan Roark and you are?",she said.Charles shocked,just like that,like had no feeling in what happened just now."My name Charles Bellow,are you okay?",Charles said."Called me Charlie",Charlie said.What a weird women, that's how Jordan and Charlie knew each other.

She brought Charlie to her house.Charlie amazed.Her father saw Charlie,and said"who is this man,Jordan?",Jrdan's father said."Heis my friend i just knew",she said.Without any longer waiting her father asked me to get out with a anger tone.Charlie went out the house immediately.She waving to Charlie with a smiley faced like she doesn't care.Beautiful but weird.Till next day,down to the city,regretting himself for missing the interviews.Passby the starbucks coffee,sitting down and get an order.Charlie read the newspaper he just bought.When he lift down his paper,seeing jordan was in front of him,staring."what do you want?",Chrlie said."I juust wanted to apologise behalf on my dad,he always like that,just taking care of me,sometimes it is too much caring,Jordan said.As 2 month charlie knew jordan,charlie become annoyed with Jordan's attitude.Whatever she asked me too,I must do it,cannot refuse it.She certainly destroy my interviews session.Drunken all the time,and lift her to her house,being mocked by her father.It is more like routine to Charlie.But their relation never gets bored.

until one night,Jordan make something that pissed off Charlie.They get seperated for a moment.About two three hours,Jordan forcely asked Charlie to come to the harbour that instant.Charlie was a nice guy,he never refused a women need.He went there.Seeing Jordan sitting down at the edge of the jetty.She apologise again.Then she dealed with Charlie to jump down to the sea.Charlie refused at the first time,but as Jordan turn her body and walked away,a splash of body into the sea.Actually Charlie cannot swim,Charlie doesn't appeared,Jordan then jumped into the sea to save him.
They laughed together,shiveriing cold because of the sea water.One day,"Hey charlie,please come to the restaurant de'chaffeur,i wanted to show you to a men",jordan said."charlie said,arghh,she doing something crazy again."im with a girl too",charlie said try to make jordan jealous.with an hour later,Charlie come to the restaurant."i'm sorry,i'm with a man actually,a shemale",charlie said.Jordan laughed loudly."this is the man i want you to meet",jordan said.In that moment,Charlie felt that Jordan is making fool of me.Jordan wentt to the toilet.Charlie leave a message to the man and walked away the restaurant.As Jordan went back to the desk,she saw no more charlie,and the man said that charlie need to go for some urgent cases."he leave me a message",the man said."it says that how to take good care of you,the way of taking a good care of you",the man said.As she heard all the message,she noticed that charlie was care about her,Jordan touched and cried.She ran away the restaurant,and chased charlie.

As she found charlie,she scream his name.Charlie heard that and turn away.Jordan ran towards him and hug him."i love you Charlie"'Jordan said.The next day,they both promise to write a letter about their feelings about each other."i want you to write better than me",jordan said to charlie.Then they meet under a tree,Jordan marked it as their tree.Jordan put their letter into a bottle and put it under the stone at the roots of the tree.At that moment,Jordan's face become sad.She pulled Charlie hand and went to the subway."You still remember this placed,charlie",jordan said."yes,i do remembered it",charlie said."this the placed we meet and the placed we gonna seperated",jordan said.Charlie shocked.Jordan's tear became to rolling down her faces."but why?",charlie said."Its all explained in that letter that will be only read at this time at this date but at the next year",jordan said.Train come.She asked Charlie to ride it first,she will take the next train she insisted.charlie looks down into her eyes,and hold her hands,and lastly asked,Why do you want this?."i already explained in that letter,wait till next year"jordan said.As charlie ride the train,she turbed away and regretting her life and questioning,Why that charlie so nice to me?tears keep rolling,stared at charlie,see him fade to the darkness of the tunnels,fade to her sight.

Day by days,week by weeks,Charlie cannot stop thinking of her.His friend asked him to just find the replacement.But Charlie taking that hardly,he cannot do that.He fills his time with swimming session,so that when he meet Jordan again he can prove he can swim.Everytimes he wanted to sleep,his mind wandered about her,what happen to her now,is it she more beautiful,is it she misrable like me,he thought.

The year he waiting for is coming.He dressed up smartly,put on new perfumes.And he went to the tree.Waiting for her eagerly.As for sure,she always late.But this time is too late,make me read it first.I pick the envelop and start reading

"Dear charlie,

Hows you year?The things is if I not shown today means that i'm not
healed my memory yet.Actually,you make me refreshing about my died
fiancee.Every single movement,single words make me thinking of him.
I dealed you to jump into the sea,makes me as what i said is just
to make that my fiancee is still with me,still alive.But now things become complicated,I love you so much,but at the same time,makes me thinking i would be doublecrossed his love.Thats why i need to seperated with you,try to healed myself.I must stop thinking abbout him,what gone be by gone.If i not come today,doensnt mean i'm not love u,it is just i'm not healed anymore.

Jordan Roark.

Charlie cried and began to noticed that he wasting his time just to waiting the love that never meant to him.Maybe it is Charlies destiny."I will love her no matter what happened,and i still will make a bridge to my love one.Charlie went out from there with dissapointment.I LOVE YOU JORDAN,screaming inside his heart.It is destiny.It is our destiny.