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The first since i knew her, i thought she was a savior of my life. Someone that can cheers for me everyday. Someone that i can keep my promise to. But now its different. I thought she will be better than person before, but still it hurts more that before. I don't know. Dulu, mase dia first time mintak clash. My heart hurted so much. I want to let go her, but at that time i can't because a small percentage about my sins halang daripada let go dia. I stayed from that moment. When my mind have changed, i became completely love her because from that moment. But then, she lied to me..........

                       I don't know what to do anymore that time. I became so rushed sebab aku tak sangka yang orang yang dulu aku kenal tidak ada perangai sebegitu. Dia say sorry. So many times actually she said that word. But still, she did it again and again. My heart dulu sgt fragile and sangat sayang orang yang aku sayang ,now became more to heartless.  I don't know what to do anymore. I kept that feelings away but she still did it again. Crushing my heart to pieces. Thousand pieces. And then dia salahkan aku sebab perangai aku. Hm........

                     Takpelah, i think i made the right decision to let her go this time. Aku janji takkan contact dia. Aku berjanji. Walaupun it stabbed me rite thru the heart so many times but let it be.Walaupun susah untuk melepaskan orang yang aku saynag, tapi lagi bagus daripada menyimpan racun dgn diri  sndri. Dia bukan sayang hati aku lagi. Asyik aku je sayang hati dia. Dia asyik buat ikut kemahuan dia je tanpa pkir perasaan orang lain. If its normal to you , then jangan cari org mcm me in the first place. You already know my perangai when dgn dia dlu, kan? Sampai hati dia buat aku mcm ni.
 
                      "Maafkan me if me ad salah dgn you, maafkan me if me ad berkasar dgn you selama ni, maafkan me if ade things yang me hide from you, maafkan me if me not the best guy you hoped for, maafkan me if me leave you. Maafkan me atas ketelanjuran me. Maafkan segala dosa dosa me terhadap baby." I leave you because you always made my life tak tenteram. My life selama 2 bulan dekat jordan ni jadi terumbang ambing. Me tak tau la. Me study medicine. Medicine tu susah. If you asyik buat me mcm ni, mcm mne me nk hidup. Tak tau la awak, my heart tengah pedih sangat now. I think you the first person that made my tears fall down so many times. I weak hearted person. Im need a supporter. Not this. Not sending me msg yang dapat lukakan lagi hati me. You nmpk je me mcm tk kisah, but act everynite me fikir. Ni dh nk dkat exm. Me tak dapat focus lagi. Sabtu ni dh exam. Tapi ade you know how my life sni. How my attitude are? hm, you hanya tau keseronokan you je. Tu je conclusion nye, its all about you. If me beralah, takkan me nk terima something yang me tasuke. Takkan me nk pendam perasaan tu, sedangkan you boleh happy. Hm, takpelah. You pandai, you smart, you boleh fikir. Im sorry. But the last thing from me, hope you find a good man.